Anticipation

Alright, so, I've messaged my boyfriend's dad to ask how he is doing. From what I've heard he's going through a pretty rough patch. I can totally understand that.
Maybe I have been too self-centered in wanting attention from him. Ofcourse I know it's not (going to be) easy, but aside from his problems I have been going through a rough period as well. I can totally accept it if my problems are talked about less, because I don't really ever want to talk about my dad, and I hate people showing sympathy. But sometimes it's good to talk about it in private and really tell someone what is on my mind.

Well, anyway, his parents are going to visit him tonight to see how he is doing, and I can call his dad tomorrow afternoon so I can get an update on how he is doing. Yes, he has only been there for 2 days by then, but still I think it is very important to know what is going on. Not from a stalker perspective or anything, I just want what is best for him, and I want to show support in any way I can.

Hearing from his dad that he is having a hard time, and I feel bad that this is the case, but on the other hand I feel relieved that he might not be angry with me, but was just stressing out. But I also feel guilty.. Guilty about getting angry with him the day he went to rehab. I'm sure I was kinda the last thing on his mind at that time (unfortunately), and me getting angry with him might not have helped him in any way whatsoever.

I just hope that when he gets out in about a month all will be good and his life can really start for real. I also can't wait to see him again, since it has been about 2 weeks since I last saw him. I have never been a month and a half without seeing someone I truly cared about, so it's going to be diffcult for both of us. Sure, I'm not the one in rehab, but since I just moved about a month ago I am very scarce on "friends" on this side of the country, so a kind voice and a warm embrace surely wouldn't come amiss. We just have to hang in there and I just hope everything will work out. I'm just very afraid to hear bad news tomorrow when I speak to his dad about him not wanting to talk to me or see me anymore in the future.
I feel like I might've messed up..